3D Ultrasounds!!!

3D Ultrasound of Genesis' face!!!

3D of Genesis with her fist in her face!!!

Well...

Kyr even tried to intervene and tell Radames that he is an idiot. But idiocy isn't curable by rationale. That's why it's idiocy. Radames is, apparently, not functioning on the level that normal human beings function on. Dumb ass. When Kyr brought up the situation, he said that he is "going to let [his] mother deal with it." Aww...that's so CUTE--let your MOMMY deal with your problems, like you are 3 years old again! So much for being a "grown man." Let his MOMMY call me. I dare her. I double, triple, quadruple dare her to call me trying to deal with this FOR him. He is nowhere near ready to be a father and he doesn't care to be. He told me (before we stopped talking, of course) that he hates me and he hates Genesis. So fuck him. He WILL regret it, and karma is a BITCH.

Cute Huh?

So...

I calmed down since last night. I am still insanely irritated. I still want to leave. I still think that my "family" is a bunch of assholes. But, I am more calm about it than I was last night. I need to find a place to go though. And with what money I have. I need to find a job, actually. Just a small part time thing. Something to look into at least. Ugh. Anyway. I guess that this is going to be a short blog. Genesis has been kicking harder lately. Must be her growing and her bones getting harder. I love my baby so much!

I fucking hate this...

I am so ready to just LEAVE. I bring food to the table of this household, and my mother's retard boyfriend has the balls to tell me that I have no say so in this house? Fuck you and the horse you rode in on. I can convince my mother to leave your sorry ass in a heart beat. I fucking hate Danielle. I am officially OFFICIALLY disowning her here and now. I am done with her lies, done with her bullshit. Radames can kiss my ass too. I hope whoever the girl is, she broke his heart. He deserves all he gets and more. I want to get the fuck away from my mother. Unfortunately, I have to finish this semester. Otherwise I would get the fuck out of here. I am thinking about going to a homeless shelter. Jesus Christ, at least I wouldn't be around my FUCKING FAMILY. Everyone who thinks family is great and all of that bullshit, I have news for you. It isn't. Family is just more drama and more BULLSHIT. And I am this upset with Genesis inside of me and it isn't fair to HER. But my "family" doesn't give a flying fuck about that, do they? They think it's okay to stress me out. to make me do shit that strains my body, to make me cater to them while they sit on their fat asses. That would be fine, but I AM CARRYING AN INNOCENT CHILD! They think it is funny to smoke in my face. THAT SHIT IS NOT FUNNY!!! I am so fucking DONE with my "family!"

Radames and the "LOVE OF HIS LIFE" broke up...

So, Radames' MySpace status made the assumption that I made months ago OBVIOUS. He broke up with whoever it was that he was dating. And, since Rocio's MySpace status is similar to his, I assume that it was her. So, the father of my child (who claims he had nothing to do with making Genesis...so apparently she is a miracle baby...) is in love with someone else. And she broke his heart, similar to the way he broke my heart. I feel for him, but at the same time, it's poetic justice. Genesis is jumping around, and it's awesome. Anyway, back to what I was talking about. I want nothing more than to be friends with him, but he doesn't even want to speak to me. I haven't spoke to him since August. I am irritated at him in the extreme, to say the least. I at least want him to speak to me, to wonder how his daughter is doing. And, for some RETARDED reason, I am still in love with him. Ugh. Two and a half months ago I was the love of his life, and now he hates me, and has a new "love of his life." Irritating. To say the least. I thought he was different, but he's just the same. Maybe a little more dysfunctional. A little more in love with the IDEA of being in love rather than in love with anyone or anything. I was that way once, but I grew up. And since I am a female, I assume he will be on my level in about, oh, say 30 years. I am hoping when he sees our daughter he has a miraculous wakeup call. One can hope. But I'm not going to hold my breath. Either way, I have a gorgeous daughter on the way. With or without him.